bunny bunny bunny

how could i not want a bunny?? he's a little like me when im drunk.. yeeeah!

a BUNNY what?!

look at these guys.how cute. right?? hehehe .. so i had a little eSKOMO for a while and she became alot to handle and now i want to get a bunny. everyone keeps telling me that bunnies stink and all they do is poop but i've been doing the research and i want one! they're loveable and they're not that boring. they only stink if you don't take care of them or their cages ass holes! i've always wanted a bunny. so stop crushing my dreams dammmmit!! \. but anyways when the time is right in the near future i hope to buy one.. im excited! ;) adorable. i keep looking at all the different ones and i don't know if i want a cute little one or a chubby one. whatever i get i want it when it's a baby. i want it ALL! such a brat.. hehehe.

ROAD TRIP

HAHAH so excited . So the booski and I are going on a road trip. I'm stoked! (eww did i just say that?!) anyways. I'm sure it's going to be fun. California here we come. We're orginally going to see cherry and phil for their birthdays but i figure since it's mother's day weekend why not visit grammmaa... righttt??? Total Estimated Time: 13 hours 47 minutes Total Estimated Distance: 844.42 miles ... hehehe 14 hours stuck with me in the car.? yeahhh should be fun. (fyi: i live to annoy my boyfriend. it's just funny, well to me.) i can't wait to be in the sun. and eat in and our burgers. YES! total thumbs down that Great America is closed but i'm sure we'll find some other random sun shit to do. ;)

to love or to be in love

i found this article online. just randomly came across it.

What is the basic difference between loving someone and being in love with the person? Before we can be sure that we have found true love, we need to be sure what these two terminologies mean.

Is it possible to meet someone, connect with the person and love the person’s personality, way of life, etc? Truly be comfortable with such a person? Certainly! Most of us know significant others in our lives who fall into this category. At the same time, it is possible to totally connect with a significant other and feel the butterflies every time with this person.

But the latter scenario could very much be a crush or an obsession. How do we know that our feelings don’t fall into the latter group? To understand my discourse, we need to understand the various emotions at work in the different scenarios.

Firstly, the crush or obsession: One feels a crush for another person, for no good reason at all. Often, the object of the crush may not even be aware of it. It can be described as an irrational desire and/or admiration for the other person, which is totally uncalled for, or has no rational cause. Usually, this desire is almost purely physical: has to do with physical beauty, carriage, manners, smell, etc of the other person. It is a likeness from a distance, such that one has for someone whom one doesn’t even speak to, or in close proximity, with someone whom one just says hello. At best, these feelings are juvenile, immature and usually manifest in the awkward years of a teenager.

The obsession, however, is a more mature form of the crush. While the crush may be teenage in origin, the obsession stems from an advanced stage of the crush, where emotions and thoughts have been nurtured continuously to an inferno. Usually, at the obsessive stage, the obsessive person has plucked up the courage to develop some little relationship with the object of his or her desire without the latter being aware of it. What makes the latter an obsession is that the object of the desire is either unaware of this desire, or doesn’t appreciate it.

Now, to the crux: What is the difference between being in love and not being in love? It is the butterflies! When a relationship is still young, and both parties are starry-eyed about each other, they believe they are in love. They feel the butterflies. But true love must be tested, time and again.

Love that tests true to diverse storms and passes the true love tests may not feel the butterflies and starry-eyed-ness of the young hot couple next door, who can’t take their eyes or hands off each other. When a relationship which goes through stormy times (this is a must for every relationship) and still endures, it means that the butterflies still persist. The other person still gives you a reason to hold on; still has that something; the fire, the smile, the look in their eyes, the personality, the charm to make you still hold on, despite all the ups and downs. At this level, you know that you love that person truly.

But what about the others that are really sweet and loveable people? Sure, they exist; we definitely do know them. These are people we do love, but not with the same intensity. Yes, we will miss them in our lives, if it comes down to it; yes, we will miss them like we will miss an old friend or colleague or a really dear one. This is the love we have for our family members but may not quite make the grade, when it comes to a life partner. The love you have for someone you want to make your life partner needs to be stronger than filial love, because you want to hang in there, for better or worse, till death do us part.

Understanding these core differences, immediately opens our eye of understanding to know exactly what emotions we feel and where we stand with the various loved ones in our lives.

Just thought I'd share this made me think a little ;)

home, eh!

seems like i haven't been home in ages!

for those of you that know me.. know that is not my room, but every time i walk into my room i feel like its like that .. ewww!
i hate it.

yeeeah, love.

On what falling in love is like:
"Like an avalanche where you have to run for your life." (Roger, 9)

"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." (Leo, 7)

Concerning why love happens between two particular people:
"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell. That's why perfume and deodorant are so popular." (Jan, 9)

"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful." (Harlen, 8)

Concerning the origins of love:
"Cupid kissed God and that got the ball rollin'." (Julio, 9)

"One of the Greek lady gods got a crush on one of the Greek man gods. He tried to hit her with lightning and thunderbolts, but he just couldn't get her away from him ... After a while, they became the first married gods." (Robbie, 8)

Reflections on the nature of love:
"Love is the most important thing in the world, but baseball is pretty good too."
(Greg, 8)

How do people in love typically behave?
"Mooshy ... like puppy dogs ... except puppy dogs don't wag their tails nearly as much." (Arnold, 10)

"When a person gets kissed for the first time, they fall down and they don't get up for at least an hour." (Wendy, 8)

"All of a sudden, the people get movies fever so they can sit together in the dark." (Sherm, 8)

What is the proper age to get married?
"Eighty-four! Because at that age, you don't have to work anymore, and you can spend all your time loving each other in your bedroom." (Judy, 8)

"Once I'm done with kindergarten, I'm going to find me a wife!" (Tom, 5)

What do most people do on a date?
"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date." (Mike, 10)

When is it okay to kiss someone?
"You should never kiss a girl unless you have enough bucks to buy her a big ring and her own VCR, 'cause she'll want to have videos of the wedding." (Jim, 10)

"Never kiss in front of other people. It's a big embarrassing thing if anybody sees you. But if nobody sees you, I might be willing to try it with a handsome boy, but just for a few hours." (Kally, 9)

How was kissing invented?
"I know one reason that kissing was created. It makes you feel warm all over, and they didn't always have electric heat or fireplaces or even stoves in their houses." (Gina, 8)

How a person learns to kiss:
"You learn it right on the spot when the gooshy feelings get the best of you." ( ?)

The great debate: is it better to be single or married?
"It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need somebody to clean up after them!" (Lynette, 9)

"It gives me a headache to think about that stuff. I'm just a kid. I don't need that kind of trouble." (Kenny, 7)

On the role of good looks in love:
"If you want to be loved by somebody who isn't already in your family, it doesn't hurt to be beautiful." (Jeanne, 8)

"It isn't always just how you look. Look at me. I'm handsome like anything and I haven't got anybody to marry me yet." (Gary, 7)

"Beauty is skin deep. But how rich you are can last a long time." (Christine, 9)

Concerning why lovers often hold hands:
"They want to make sure their rings don't fall off because they paid good money for them." (Dave, 8)

Confidential opinions about love:
"I'm in favor of love as long as it doesn't happen when 'The Simpsons' is on television." (Anita, 6)

"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I have been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." (Bobby, 8)

"I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding fourth grade hard enough." (Regina, 10)

The personal qualities necessary to be a good lover:
"One of you should know how to write a check. Because, even if you have tons of love, there is still going to be a lot of bills." (Ava, 8)

Some surefire ways to make a person fall in love with you:
"Tell them that you own a whole bunch of candy stores." (Del, 6)

"Don't do things like have smelly, green sneakers. You might get attention, but attention ain't the same thing as love." (Alonzo, 9)

"One way is to take the girl out to eat. Make sure it's something she likes to eat. French fries usually works for me." (Bart, 9)

How can you tell if two adults eating dinner at a restaurant are in love?
"Just see if the man picks up the check. That's how you can tell if he's in love." (John, 9)

"Lovers will just be staring at each other and their food will get cold. Other people care more about the food." (Brad, 8)

"It's love if they order one of those desserts that are on fire. They like to order those because it's just like how their hearts are on fire." (Christine, 9)

What most people are thinking when they say "I love you":
"The person is thinking: Yeah, I really do love him. But I hope he showers at least once a day. (Michelle, 9)

How to make love endure:
"Spend most of your time loving instead of going to work." (Dick, 7)

"Don't forget your wife's name ... That will mess up the love." (Erin, 8)

"Be a good kisser. It might make your wife forget that you never take out the trash." (Dave, 8)

"Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind ... Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch." (Natalie, 9)

choices

If I can't do
what I want to do
then my job is to not
do what I don't want to do
It's not the same thing
but it's the best I can do

If I can't have
what I want...then
my job is to want what I've got
and be satisfied
that at least there
is something more to want

Since I can't go
where I need to go...
then I must....go
where the signs point
through always
understanding parallel movement
isn't lateral

When I can't express
what I really feel
I practice feeling
what I can express
and none of it is equal I know
but that's way mankind
alone among the animals
learns to cry

positive thoughts

“Fear less, hope more; Eat less, chew more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Love more, and all good things will be yours” - Swedish Proverb

life life life

its been awhile since i've update this blog.. hella laggin.

right now at this moment i have lots on my mind. tonight a had a little chat with my roomie and we talked a little about life and what we wanted -- and right now.. what do i really want? it made me think about everything.. -- woooOoo.'

in a lot of ways im confused you know totally sucks-- but i'lll figure it out right ? nothing a little time can't fix.