Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
- we have to say goodbye to little bax. sad sad sad! these people come tonight to take him. i'm super happy that he's going to a good home we just didn't have the time or attention that he required which totally sucks! but like he said before he is most definitely getting to be alot of work!
+woohoo halloween! no worries there will not be a replay of last year. i promise!
Sunday, October 18, 2009
- i hope to finish these 2 maybe even 3 chemistry chapters
- do my news scan since i've missed doing the last 2
- do the math lessons & homework i started to slack on
- finish up the damn laundry
- clean clean and clean
- catch up on my dvr shows!
Friday, October 16, 2009
today was my first day off in 6 days, seems like its been forever and i just had my first chem test yikes! i don't think i did that well but we'll see this might end up being the test that i throw out. wen to bed last night at 1230 woke up at 7 did laundry and cleaned up the house a little & went to school then home to take the boyfriend to surgery sat in the waiting room for 3.5 hrs went to the pharmacy and fed him now he's in bed and i'm here with baxter (omg can we say annoying! he is driving me nuts) so now i'm going to finish my dvr-ed episode of they city then i'm going to take a quick nap then try to see if i can get something together for dinner then finish up the next chapter for chem,
Thursday, October 15, 2009
-- well more updates later i gotta get some sleep big test in the morning!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
just got done with my homework. and now I'm off to bed with the two babies! (&&& both of them are snoring. GREAT!)
Looking forward to Friday i have a crochet lesson! yes, i am turning into a grandma.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
tomorrow is my first day at school. i'm actually pretty excited.
baxter is driving me CRAZY! i love him to death but oomg!
okay back to organizing my life. hehe ;)
Friday, September 25, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
+ i'm living in beacon with my boyfriend and our new dog ( i should actually say his new dog) hah!
+ working in west seattle
+ starting school AGAIN on tuesday.
so life is good. minus the stressful 10 hour work days and trying to potty train an 11 week old puppy.
this morning i try to start working out again.. did a few weighted squats along with a few kg swings and i tried to do some knees to elbows .. ahhhh, everyone knows how much i love to work out. hehehe but i really do need to start.
i'm trying to save money by not buying lunch it's been a week and i'm doing good lets see how long i can keep it up.
also i'm trying to find a crochet class somewhere that works with my schedule and its hard. dammmit!
i swear i'm like an old lady. wake up at 8am everyday to bed my 1030, maybe 11 if i fight to stay up, reading books when i have free time and if i can find a class then crochet too.
this post is all over the place huh?? oh well .
Monday, June 15, 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
- my allergies are killing me
- messy room
special thank you to everyone that came to my birthday ;) &&& thank you to my boyfriend tooo !!!
People come into your life
for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which it is,
you know exactly what to do
-- Michelle Ventor
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Sunday, April 26, 2009
look at these guys.how cute. right?? hehehe .. so i had a little eSKOMO for a while and she became alot to handle and now i want to get a bunny. everyone keeps telling me that bunnies stink and all they do is poop but i've been doing the research and i want one! they're loveable and they're not that boring. they only stink if you don't take care of them or their cages ass holes! i've always wanted a bunny. so stop crushing my dreams dammmmit!! \. but anyways when the time is right in the near future i hope to buy one.. im excited! ;) adorable. i keep looking at all the different ones and i don't know if i want a cute little one or a chubby one. whatever i get i want it when it's a baby. i want it ALL! such a brat.. hehehe.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
i found this article online. just randomly came across it.
What is the basic difference between loving someone and being in love with the person? Before we can be sure that we have found true love, we need to be sure what these two terminologies mean.
Is it possible to meet someone, connect with the person and love the person’s personality, way of life, etc? Truly be comfortable with such a person? Certainly! Most of us know significant others in our lives who fall into this category. At the same time, it is possible to totally connect with a significant other and feel the butterflies every time with this person.
But the latter scenario could very much be a crush or an obsession. How do we know that our feelings don’t fall into the latter group? To understand my discourse, we need to understand the various emotions at work in the different scenarios.
Firstly, the crush or obsession: One feels a crush for another person, for no good reason at all. Often, the object of the crush may not even be aware of it. It can be described as an irrational desire and/or admiration for the other person, which is totally uncalled for, or has no rational cause. Usually, this desire is almost purely physical: has to do with physical beauty, carriage, manners, smell, etc of the other person. It is a likeness from a distance, such that one has for someone whom one doesn’t even speak to, or in close proximity, with someone whom one just says hello. At best, these feelings are juvenile, immature and usually manifest in the awkward years of a teenager.
The obsession, however, is a more mature form of the crush. While the crush may be teenage in origin, the obsession stems from an advanced stage of the crush, where emotions and thoughts have been nurtured continuously to an inferno. Usually, at the obsessive stage, the obsessive person has plucked up the courage to develop some little relationship with the object of his or her desire without the latter being aware of it. What makes the latter an obsession is that the object of the desire is either unaware of this desire, or doesn’t appreciate it.
Now, to the crux: What is the difference between being in love and not being in love? It is the butterflies! When a relationship is still young, and both parties are starry-eyed about each other, they believe they are in love. They feel the butterflies. But true love must be tested, time and again.
Love that tests true to diverse storms and passes the true love tests may not feel the butterflies and starry-eyed-ness of the young hot couple next door, who can’t take their eyes or hands off each other. When a relationship which goes through stormy times (this is a must for every relationship) and still endures, it means that the butterflies still persist. The other person still gives you a reason to hold on; still has that something; the fire, the smile, the look in their eyes, the personality, the charm to make you still hold on, despite all the ups and downs. At this level, you know that you love that person truly.
But what about the others that are really sweet and loveable people? Sure, they exist; we definitely do know them. These are people we do love, but not with the same intensity. Yes, we will miss them in our lives, if it comes down to it; yes, we will miss them like we will miss an old friend or colleague or a really dear one. This is the love we have for our family members but may not quite make the grade, when it comes to a life partner. The love you have for someone you want to make your life partner needs to be stronger than filial love, because you want to hang in there, for better or worse, till death do us part.
Understanding these core differences, immediately opens our eye of understanding to know exactly what emotions we feel and where we stand with the various loved ones in our lives.
Just thought I'd share this made me think a little ;)
Thursday, April 16, 2009
On what falling in love is like:
"Like an avalanche where you have to run for your life." (Roger, 9)
"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." (Leo, 7)
Concerning why love happens between two particular people:
"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell. That's why perfume and deodorant are so popular." (Jan, 9)
"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful." (Harlen, 8)
Concerning the origins of love:
"Cupid kissed God and that got the ball rollin'." (Julio, 9)
"One of the Greek lady gods got a crush on one of the Greek man gods. He tried to hit her with lightning and thunderbolts, but he just couldn't get her away from him ... After a while, they became the first married gods." (Robbie, 8)
Reflections on the nature of love:
"Love is the most important thing in the world, but baseball is pretty good too."
How do people in love typically behave?
"Mooshy ... like puppy dogs ... except puppy dogs don't wag their tails nearly as much." (Arnold, 10)
"When a person gets kissed for the first time, they fall down and they don't get up for at least an hour." (Wendy, 8)
"All of a sudden, the people get movies fever so they can sit together in the dark." (Sherm, 8)
What is the proper age to get married?
"Eighty-four! Because at that age, you don't have to work anymore, and you can spend all your time loving each other in your bedroom." (Judy, 8)
"Once I'm done with kindergarten, I'm going to find me a wife!" (Tom, 5)
What do most people do on a date?
"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date." (Mike, 10)
When is it okay to kiss someone?
"You should never kiss a girl unless you have enough bucks to buy her a big ring and her own VCR, 'cause she'll want to have videos of the wedding." (Jim, 10)
"Never kiss in front of other people. It's a big embarrassing thing if anybody sees you. But if nobody sees you, I might be willing to try it with a handsome boy, but just for a few hours." (Kally, 9)
How was kissing invented?
"I know one reason that kissing was created. It makes you feel warm all over, and they didn't always have electric heat or fireplaces or even stoves in their houses." (Gina, 8)
How a person learns to kiss:
"You learn it right on the spot when the gooshy feelings get the best of you." ( ?)
The great debate: is it better to be single or married?
"It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need somebody to clean up after them!" (Lynette, 9)
"It gives me a headache to think about that stuff. I'm just a kid. I don't need that kind of trouble." (Kenny, 7)
On the role of good looks in love:
"If you want to be loved by somebody who isn't already in your family, it doesn't hurt to be beautiful." (Jeanne, 8)
"It isn't always just how you look. Look at me. I'm handsome like anything and I haven't got anybody to marry me yet." (Gary, 7)
"Beauty is skin deep. But how rich you are can last a long time." (Christine, 9)
Concerning why lovers often hold hands:
"They want to make sure their rings don't fall off because they paid good money for them." (Dave, 8)
Confidential opinions about love:
"I'm in favor of love as long as it doesn't happen when 'The Simpsons' is on television." (Anita, 6)
"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I have been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." (Bobby, 8)
"I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding fourth grade hard enough." (Regina, 10)
The personal qualities necessary to be a good lover:
"One of you should know how to write a check. Because, even if you have tons of love, there is still going to be a lot of bills." (Ava, 8)
Some surefire ways to make a person fall in love with you:
"Tell them that you own a whole bunch of candy stores." (Del, 6)
"Don't do things like have smelly, green sneakers. You might get attention, but attention ain't the same thing as love." (Alonzo, 9)
"One way is to take the girl out to eat. Make sure it's something she likes to eat. French fries usually works for me." (Bart, 9)
How can you tell if two adults eating dinner at a restaurant are in love?
"Just see if the man picks up the check. That's how you can tell if he's in love." (John, 9)
"Lovers will just be staring at each other and their food will get cold. Other people care more about the food." (Brad, 8)
"It's love if they order one of those desserts that are on fire. They like to order those because it's just like how their hearts are on fire." (Christine, 9)
What most people are thinking when they say "I love you":
"The person is thinking: Yeah, I really do love him. But I hope he showers at least once a day. (Michelle, 9)
How to make love endure:
"Spend most of your time loving instead of going to work." (Dick, 7)
"Don't forget your wife's name ... That will mess up the love." (Erin, 8)
"Be a good kisser. It might make your wife forget that you never take out the trash." (Dave, 8)
"Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind ... Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch." (Natalie, 9)
what I want to do
then my job is to not
do what I don't want to do
It's not the same thing
but it's the best I can do
If I can't have
what I want...then
my job is to want what I've got
and be satisfied
that at least there
is something more to want
Since I can't go
where I need to go...
then I must....go
where the signs point
understanding parallel movement
When I can't express
what I really feel
I practice feeling
what I can express
and none of it is equal I know
but that's way mankind
alone among the animals
learns to cry
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Monday, April 6, 2009
right now at this moment i have lots on my mind. tonight a had a little chat with my roomie and we talked a little about life and what we wanted -- and right now.. what do i really want? it made me think about everything.. -- woooOoo.'
in a lot of ways im confused you know totally sucks-- but i'lll figure it out right ? nothing a little time can't fix.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
- i'm still dying & sick
+ i'm happy though besides that
+i'm painting the room pink! YEEEEEAH
+ im staying in seattle for the next year
+ hopefully holiday in july -- in need of some sun.
+ i love my roomies
- i miss skomo
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
it hasn't been that long but i've diverted away from the whole date tip. and i'm actually proud of myself. i don't need a man right? yes, it is very nice to have someone but i think (right now in this current moment) i kinda don't want someone around. i'm happy chillin in bed watching movies, listening to music and reading books alone, (ps i'm totaly not turning into an emo girl) i like to think im carefree. i'm also trying my best to eliminate the little things in my life that stress me.
and this weekend. was great i loved every minute of it. going out with the girls friday getting hella loaded (sorry sheen) always fun.. then hella chill saturday with my parents and my little baby skomo ( i hella hella miss her.. i know not enough to take her back to seattle to live with me shut your face. i'm a horrible mom, i know) ended up getting stuck in some insane traffic left bremerton at 930 got home at 11. can we say insane? hah it's okay thought when i got home. i popped some popcorn and got hella into my book. (hella nerd status, i even put on the glasses) then sunday woke up early and chilled with my boyfriend, andrew it seems like it's been a long time since we've had a day like that chillin at barnes forever, costco then applebees! we are so fat! then we had a pleasent little run in with mr. stalker! i always love running into him. he is the male version of me. it's a little scary but i've accepted it. he always gives his full opinion of my life, not having a second thought of how it's going to make me feel ( but he is never ass holeish about it) i think i admire that most about him and i feel like that is why we get along so well, but still not well enought to call us freinds we are aquantences. (ahh it's complicated!)
anyways i'm happy:
+ i got to take a nap with my baby skomes (one of my many things i look forward to when going back to bremerton)
+ i want it all
+ i can seriously get lost in barnes
- shop therapy has been helping me be happy is that wrong? atleast i'm not turning to alcohol
+ so i've decided that from the remainder of this month i won't buy anymore books until i finish everything that i have now. its not that bad it's only like 3 books.. kinda. give or take .
+ also i'm only going to go out(as in get shit face-drunkie) on special events & the occational wednesday or when i just need that little fix for the rest of this month..(hah i know you're probably thinking ok. you'll proabbly need that fix every week, uhg! no! ) oh yeah and this excluedes dinner and lunch dates ( cause i need those, when i have lunch and dinner dates with friends i feel like they help to bring me closer to friends, it gives me a chance actually talk to them .. ahh whatever no explination needed but anyways i never plan on and i hardly ever get shit-faced on dinner or lunch dates) and yes i do know that its only the 2nd of march and i have a long way to go since there are 31 days this month. i can do it, it's what i want. i can do anything i set my mind to. so until the end of this month on official drunk night fridays will involve other activities then being little miss drunkie. -- party girl out, and saturday date nights are more chill and very bummy..
- i'm fucking hungry!
+ but this month i hope to work out more. party less, maybe take on a hobby, read more (help to expand my vocabulary) and just over all become a better person for myself.. (it's amazing what thoughts come out when i stay in, breath and take a step away from my life) and no i'm not depressed or sad in anyway i just wanna get away and out of the party girl scene and stereotype and i know i've been saying that for a long time ( i really do think i've toned it down alot. i went from going out 5 days a week to just 1 or 2 days big chage for me) and i feel like its time to really take it down a knotch.
i know you should never really care about what people say and what people think about you . and for the most part i don't just lately there have been a few random comments that have been shot my way and i actually really do take a little offense to them..(i guess the things that sucks most is that theses comments are from different people.) i know most are just random jokes and funn, but still even though i don't reveal it at the time it kinda hurts to hear somethings. or i dont know if hurt is the word.. but it bothers me. (there's always a little truth to every joke) i always think is that what you really think about me ? i always like to appear and be happy and care free i feel like if i'm happy then the people around me are happy. (eww i don't mean to get into this)
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
what do i really want? what really makes me happy? where do i wanna be right now? so on and so forth.. lots and lots of thinking ;
+ 20 more pages and im done reading something borrowed
- "you want the world but you just can't have it"
+ coraline in 3d with my 'boyfriend'
+ " youre definitely one of my favorite people to be around right now"
+ finally im not going to be blind anymore
- i actually missed out on my 'busy monday' routine
+ t.i. tonight
+ march 10 - the dream's new cd
+ quick nap.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
+ i woke up happy
+ i got flowers
- weird, dilemma(i think i spelled that right but it looks wrong?) on my mind; uhm what to do... i'm a dummie. i'll figure it out in a few weeks.
+ i love being drunkie fuuuuuuuuun!
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
yeah well i said bye bye to my long hair.. ended up donating about 14 inches!! weee!! i haven't had my hair this short since i was in like 5th grade or something like that. but i was a big girl no tears. i made it out of there in one piece. i think i'll really like it in a few days i guess it's just taking a little getting used to you know? heh ! this is only the beginning to a new me!
so i decided that im going to donate my hair to locks of love. mom says it will get me points to get into heaven and you know i need all the points i can get hah! the minimum is 10 inches but i figure if im going to cut it i might as well cut it. i love my hair it so long but i remember last march i cut it sholder length and sice then it's grown alot it's already over 13 inches from my shoulders.. and every few weeeks i cut about 2 inches of anyways and no one notices.. so whatever. if i end up hating it then oh well it's just hair right ?? i just have to keep thinking it's for a good cause and it is.. so what the heck. i might as well just go for it! yeeeeeeahh get me into heaven!
Monday, February 2, 2009
- "pen pals"
+ busy mondays: gossip girl, secret life, the city, big love, the l word, daddy's girls
+ less drinking
+ phone is no longer my life line
+ i love babies
+ smile awhile
- we ran out of bread!
- my closet broke
+ tether ball
- looooser face = sad panda
- im hungry
Friday, January 30, 2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
ahhhhh how you like that?! this is what happens when i have a little much time to think.. heh
random likes: warm blankets. laying around. the sun. long socks. boots. laughing. dancing until my feet hurt. martinis. dinner dates. movie nights. talking for hours about nothing at all.little things just because. boxer shorts. orchids. music. geting dressed up. smell good stuff. sour candy. smiling until my face hurts. anything right after it comes out of the dryer. anything that says love on it. hello kitty. puppies. bunnies that look like puppies. shoes shoes & shoes. mexican/spanish like. cutesy things. greeen. popcorn. cotton candy. food. girly stuff.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
- lots on my mind
- "i dont even know what to do with myself"
+ mama comes home saturday
+ positive mind
- be more private
Thursday, January 1, 2009
feel good music
2008 was seriously a great year for me. it was filled will fun times and good company. i wouldnt do anything differently. i learned a lot about myself last year and i hope that 2009 is a good change for me.
+ i hope to get out of that party girl stereo-type: i know that yes i like to go out and have fun, but that's not all im about
+ i'd likee to catch up on my reading: i tend to buy good books, start them, then buy a new good to starts on.