Wednesday, December 30, 2009

my blurbs

this time last year i was hands down having the time of my life. heh. right now i feel happy and excited but at the same time a little lost and scared. i guess this is what growing up really is! 2010 is my time for change. good change ;)

Sunday, December 27, 2009

the only thing in life that's constant is change.

the one thing that i thought i needed to complete my happiness is the one thing that is bringing me down right now. i know that in my heart what i did was the right thing. all i've been doing is lying to myself that things were perfect when in reality things weren't i wasn't happy. i know that right now at this very moment i'm not happy but in time i will be. --- i'm sorry

2010 resolution!

  • get back into the gym on a regular basis
  • fast food ONLY on weekends or if i'm SUPER DRUNK!
  • spend more time with family & friends
  • figure out what i wanna do "when i grow up" && stick with it.
  • winter qrt off & BACK TO SCHOOL!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Tuesday, December 15, 2009


its beginning to look a lot like christmas....

were just missing the snow, please snow sooon

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


looking back on a few old posts. heh

"Couple mistakes here and there not always right, but I'm always real that's how I sleep at night. and that might not be what you call perfect, but it's MY life!" --- get it right

and some things still dont change

Monday, December 7, 2009

its cold

wth?! its freezing and theres not even any snow. this is bull shit

Friday, November 20, 2009

on top of spaghetti

for some reason i have this stuck in my head.. i don't know why ;)

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Saturday, November 7, 2009

life is good...

best date in a long time ;)
-pikes place
-the SAM
-afternoon nap
-random shopping
-mission for an umbrella
and now home with a warm blanket && a good movie

Friday, November 6, 2009

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

its only november...

but i'm excited for chirstmas this year hehehe

PS: i'm dying of the flu or something again, this must be a yearly occurrence. bullshit!

Wednesday, October 28, 2009


damn i HATE Tuesdays, hah!

i'm super tired, but i have all this chem to study up on freeeakin test this Friday and a math test on Thursday i'm not too stressed over the math, but chem is stresssin me!

- i hear the boyfriend sleeping. *sighs* i'm jealous.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Friday, October 23, 2009

diet coke & mentos

so i am a total nerd we were talking about chemical reactions this morning in chem class then someone ended up mentioning diet coke and mentos && i just had to youtube it. heh enojoy!


So there's a lot going on. finally a day off ;) feels good to sit around at home and be a bum.

- we have to say goodbye to little bax. sad sad sad! these people come tonight to take him. i'm super happy that he's going to a good home we just didn't have the time or attention that he required which totally sucks! but like he said before he is most definitely getting to be alot of work!

+woohoo halloween! no worries there will not be a replay of last year. i promise!

Sunday, October 18, 2009


the only thing in life that's constant is change.

2009: this is me.

today's AGENDA:

  • i hope to finish these 2 maybe even 3 chemistry chapters
  • do my news scan since i've missed doing the last 2
  • do the math lessons & homework i started to slack on
  • finish up the damn laundry
  • clean clean and clean
  • catch up on my dvr shows!
i know how exciting am i ;)

Friday, October 16, 2009


Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. --Dr. Seuss

sometimes do you ever feel like there are not enough hours in a day. *sighs* me too! on top of that i have a million things running through my head!

today was my first day off in 6 days, seems like its been forever and i just had my first chem test yikes! i don't think i did that well but we'll see this might end up being the test that i throw out. wen to bed last night at 1230 woke up at 7 did laundry and cleaned up the house a little & went to school then home to take the boyfriend to surgery sat in the waiting room for 3.5 hrs went to the pharmacy and fed him now he's in bed and i'm here with baxter (omg can we say annoying! he is driving me nuts) so now i'm going to finish my dvr-ed episode of they city then i'm going to take a quick nap then try to see if i can get something together for dinner then finish up the next chapter for chem,

Thursday, October 15, 2009


so today is melvin's birthday. i didn't do anything too big. since i have a test tomorrow and he has surgery in the morning. ;) fun stuff! but we did go to ipanema's OMFG! sooooo good!. heeh the lady was like "so tonight you will be trying 16 different meats." i love meat! i couldn't last all 16 but it was still good. hard to believe but the buffalo was probably one of the best if i do say so myself.

-- well more updates later i gotta get some sleep big test in the morning!

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

girls talk!

this is totally random . hah i don't even know why i started listening to this soong. but it makes me miss living with my girlies! saddd panda..

Sunday, October 11, 2009


"i mean what i say and i say what i mean"

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

.. bleh

I'm in need of a day off again. I have so much TV to catch up on! thank God of DVR. hehe
just got done with my homework. and now I'm off to bed with the two babies! (&&& both of them are snoring. GREAT!)

Looking forward to Friday i have a crochet lesson! yes, i am turning into a grandma.


Tuesday, October 6, 2009

skipping school ;)

ahh. i decided to skip school today && it feels so good!

uhh?? lol

Monday, September 28, 2009

i need a real day off.

i was supposed to be off today, hah what was i thinking i ended up going in for like 2 hours. geee! i'm getting tired of work. i feel like i kinda a lot of things to do. but i'm so tired.

tomorrow is my first day at school. i'm actually pretty excited.

baxter is driving me CRAZY! i love him to death but oomg!

okay back to organizing my life. hehe ;)

Friday, September 25, 2009

i LOVE Peter Pan!

Friday August 28, 2009: Orlando, FL - Sammy Baby & Peter Pan


finally... a day off!

it feels good. hah. i put in almost 11 hours yesterday i didn't even really notice it which is sad. but i'm going to enjoy my day of being a lazy bum then head back tomorrow! blah...

Thursday, September 24, 2009

hard work for something

All men dream but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity; but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act their dream with open eyes to make it possible.
T.E. Lawrence

The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.
Paul Valery

i feel like all life is right now is mainly all work. i hate it when i sleep and i dream about work last night i had a dream about rearranging the pharmacy. hah. nice huh?? i keep thinking i'm working to pay for school thus molding my life into what i want it to be .. right?? well i hope ;)

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

hola, i'm back!

it's seriously been ages since i've got on this thing and i'll blame it on not having internet until just now ;) but lots have gone on since the last blog.

+ i'm living in beacon with my boyfriend and our new dog ( i should actually say his new dog) hah!
+ working in west seattle
+ starting school AGAIN on tuesday.

so life is good. minus the stressful 10 hour work days and trying to potty train an 11 week old puppy.

this morning i try to start working out again.. did a few weighted squats along with a few kg swings and i tried to do some knees to elbows .. ahhhh, everyone knows how much i love to work out. hehehe but i really do need to start.

i'm trying to save money by not buying lunch it's been a week and i'm doing good lets see how long i can keep it up.

also i'm trying to find a crochet class somewhere that works with my schedule and its hard. dammmit!

i swear i'm like an old lady. wake up at 8am everyday to bed my 1030, maybe 11 if i fight to stay up, reading books when i have free time and if i can find a class then crochet too.

this post is all over the place huh?? oh well .

Monday, June 15, 2009

Hella on point...

Gemini: escaping to your own little world certainly had its appeal right now; you're just not feeling like your usual social butterfly self. However, withdrawing completely into cocoon mode could understandably alarm your nearest and dearest, Let them know that this is just a little vacation into inner space, and that as soon as you're done musing and nesting you'll let them know. It'll probably be sooner than you think..

FRIENDS: i love you guys with everything that i am. and i know i've been doing my own thing lately kinda just trying to get all my shit together. but as soon as i'm done. i'll be bacccck! I LOVE YOU! "sammmee baby tell em' " hah

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Its been ages since i've posted:

- my allergies are killing me
+ sunshine
- messy room
+ booski
+ bunnies
happy feet!

special thank you to everyone that came to my birthday ;) &&& thank you to my boyfriend tooo !!!

People come into your life
for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you figure out which it is,
you know exactly what to do
-- Michelle Ventor

Sunday, May 3, 2009

What happened?

What the hell happened to these guys?? I can't find them anywhere.. BULLSHIT!

If you find these anywhere besides online let me know ;) i've been on a search...

They're trying to sell the doritos online like $10.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

bunny bunny bunny

how could i not want a bunny?? he's a little like me when im drunk.. yeeeah!

Sunday, April 26, 2009

a BUNNY what?!

look at these cute. right?? hehehe .. so i had a little eSKOMO for a while and she became alot to handle and now i want to get a bunny. everyone keeps telling me that bunnies stink and all they do is poop but i've been doing the research and i want one! they're loveable and they're not that boring. they only stink if you don't take care of them or their cages ass holes! i've always wanted a bunny. so stop crushing my dreams dammmmit!! \. but anyways when the time is right in the near future i hope to buy one.. im excited! ;) adorable. i keep looking at all the different ones and i don't know if i want a cute little one or a chubby one. whatever i get i want it when it's a baby. i want it ALL! such a brat.. hehehe.

Thursday, April 23, 2009


HAHAH so excited . So the booski and I are going on a road trip. I'm stoked! (eww did i just say that?!) anyways. I'm sure it's going to be fun. California here we come. We're orginally going to see cherry and phil for their birthdays but i figure since it's mother's day weekend why not visit grammmaa... righttt??? Total Estimated Time: 13 hours 47 minutes Total Estimated Distance: 844.42 miles ... hehehe 14 hours stuck with me in the car.? yeahhh should be fun. (fyi: i live to annoy my boyfriend. it's just funny, well to me.) i can't wait to be in the sun. and eat in and our burgers. YES! total thumbs down that Great America is closed but i'm sure we'll find some other random sun shit to do. ;)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

to love or to be in love

i found this article online. just randomly came across it.

What is the basic difference between loving someone and being in love with the person? Before we can be sure that we have found true love, we need to be sure what these two terminologies mean.

Is it possible to meet someone, connect with the person and love the person’s personality, way of life, etc? Truly be comfortable with such a person? Certainly! Most of us know significant others in our lives who fall into this category. At the same time, it is possible to totally connect with a significant other and feel the butterflies every time with this person.

But the latter scenario could very much be a crush or an obsession. How do we know that our feelings don’t fall into the latter group? To understand my discourse, we need to understand the various emotions at work in the different scenarios.

Firstly, the crush or obsession: One feels a crush for another person, for no good reason at all. Often, the object of the crush may not even be aware of it. It can be described as an irrational desire and/or admiration for the other person, which is totally uncalled for, or has no rational cause. Usually, this desire is almost purely physical: has to do with physical beauty, carriage, manners, smell, etc of the other person. It is a likeness from a distance, such that one has for someone whom one doesn’t even speak to, or in close proximity, with someone whom one just says hello. At best, these feelings are juvenile, immature and usually manifest in the awkward years of a teenager.

The obsession, however, is a more mature form of the crush. While the crush may be teenage in origin, the obsession stems from an advanced stage of the crush, where emotions and thoughts have been nurtured continuously to an inferno. Usually, at the obsessive stage, the obsessive person has plucked up the courage to develop some little relationship with the object of his or her desire without the latter being aware of it. What makes the latter an obsession is that the object of the desire is either unaware of this desire, or doesn’t appreciate it.

Now, to the crux: What is the difference between being in love and not being in love? It is the butterflies! When a relationship is still young, and both parties are starry-eyed about each other, they believe they are in love. They feel the butterflies. But true love must be tested, time and again.

Love that tests true to diverse storms and passes the true love tests may not feel the butterflies and starry-eyed-ness of the young hot couple next door, who can’t take their eyes or hands off each other. When a relationship which goes through stormy times (this is a must for every relationship) and still endures, it means that the butterflies still persist. The other person still gives you a reason to hold on; still has that something; the fire, the smile, the look in their eyes, the personality, the charm to make you still hold on, despite all the ups and downs. At this level, you know that you love that person truly.

But what about the others that are really sweet and loveable people? Sure, they exist; we definitely do know them. These are people we do love, but not with the same intensity. Yes, we will miss them in our lives, if it comes down to it; yes, we will miss them like we will miss an old friend or colleague or a really dear one. This is the love we have for our family members but may not quite make the grade, when it comes to a life partner. The love you have for someone you want to make your life partner needs to be stronger than filial love, because you want to hang in there, for better or worse, till death do us part.

Understanding these core differences, immediately opens our eye of understanding to know exactly what emotions we feel and where we stand with the various loved ones in our lives.

Just thought I'd share this made me think a little ;)

home, eh!

seems like i haven't been home in ages!

for those of you that know me.. know that is not my room, but every time i walk into my room i feel like its like that .. ewww!
i hate it.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

yeeeah, love.

Kids Views on Love and Romance

On what falling in love is like:
"Like an avalanche where you have to run for your life." (Roger, 9)

"If falling in love is anything like learning how to spell, I don't want to do it. It takes too long." (Leo, 7)

Concerning why love happens between two particular people:
"No one is sure why it happens, but I heard it has something to do with how you smell. That's why perfume and deodorant are so popular." (Jan, 9)

"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful." (Harlen, 8)

Concerning the origins of love:
"Cupid kissed God and that got the ball rollin'." (Julio, 9)

"One of the Greek lady gods got a crush on one of the Greek man gods. He tried to hit her with lightning and thunderbolts, but he just couldn't get her away from him ... After a while, they became the first married gods." (Robbie, 8)

Reflections on the nature of love:
"Love is the most important thing in the world, but baseball is pretty good too."
(Greg, 8)

How do people in love typically behave?
"Mooshy ... like puppy dogs ... except puppy dogs don't wag their tails nearly as much." (Arnold, 10)

"When a person gets kissed for the first time, they fall down and they don't get up for at least an hour." (Wendy, 8)

"All of a sudden, the people get movies fever so they can sit together in the dark." (Sherm, 8)

What is the proper age to get married?
"Eighty-four! Because at that age, you don't have to work anymore, and you can spend all your time loving each other in your bedroom." (Judy, 8)

"Once I'm done with kindergarten, I'm going to find me a wife!" (Tom, 5)

What do most people do on a date?
"On the first date, they just tell each other lies, and that usually gets them interested enough to go for a second date." (Mike, 10)

When is it okay to kiss someone?
"You should never kiss a girl unless you have enough bucks to buy her a big ring and her own VCR, 'cause she'll want to have videos of the wedding." (Jim, 10)

"Never kiss in front of other people. It's a big embarrassing thing if anybody sees you. But if nobody sees you, I might be willing to try it with a handsome boy, but just for a few hours." (Kally, 9)

How was kissing invented?
"I know one reason that kissing was created. It makes you feel warm all over, and they didn't always have electric heat or fireplaces or even stoves in their houses." (Gina, 8)

How a person learns to kiss:
"You learn it right on the spot when the gooshy feelings get the best of you." ( ?)

The great debate: is it better to be single or married?
"It's better for girls to be single but not for boys. Boys need somebody to clean up after them!" (Lynette, 9)

"It gives me a headache to think about that stuff. I'm just a kid. I don't need that kind of trouble." (Kenny, 7)

On the role of good looks in love:
"If you want to be loved by somebody who isn't already in your family, it doesn't hurt to be beautiful." (Jeanne, 8)

"It isn't always just how you look. Look at me. I'm handsome like anything and I haven't got anybody to marry me yet." (Gary, 7)

"Beauty is skin deep. But how rich you are can last a long time." (Christine, 9)

Concerning why lovers often hold hands:
"They want to make sure their rings don't fall off because they paid good money for them." (Dave, 8)

Confidential opinions about love:
"I'm in favor of love as long as it doesn't happen when 'The Simpsons' is on television." (Anita, 6)

"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it. I have been trying to hide from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me." (Bobby, 8)

"I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding fourth grade hard enough." (Regina, 10)

The personal qualities necessary to be a good lover:
"One of you should know how to write a check. Because, even if you have tons of love, there is still going to be a lot of bills." (Ava, 8)

Some surefire ways to make a person fall in love with you:
"Tell them that you own a whole bunch of candy stores." (Del, 6)

"Don't do things like have smelly, green sneakers. You might get attention, but attention ain't the same thing as love." (Alonzo, 9)

"One way is to take the girl out to eat. Make sure it's something she likes to eat. French fries usually works for me." (Bart, 9)

How can you tell if two adults eating dinner at a restaurant are in love?
"Just see if the man picks up the check. That's how you can tell if he's in love." (John, 9)

"Lovers will just be staring at each other and their food will get cold. Other people care more about the food." (Brad, 8)

"It's love if they order one of those desserts that are on fire. They like to order those because it's just like how their hearts are on fire." (Christine, 9)

What most people are thinking when they say "I love you":
"The person is thinking: Yeah, I really do love him. But I hope he showers at least once a day. (Michelle, 9)

How to make love endure:
"Spend most of your time loving instead of going to work." (Dick, 7)

"Don't forget your wife's name ... That will mess up the love." (Erin, 8)

"Be a good kisser. It might make your wife forget that you never take out the trash." (Dave, 8)

"Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind ... Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch." (Natalie, 9)


If I can't do
what I want to do
then my job is to not
do what I don't want to do
It's not the same thing
but it's the best I can do

If I can't have
what I want...then
my job is to want what I've got
and be satisfied
that at least there
is something more to want

Since I can't go
where I need to go...
then I must....go
where the signs point
through always
understanding parallel movement
isn't lateral

When I can't express
what I really feel
I practice feeling
what I can express
and none of it is equal I know
but that's way mankind
alone among the animals
learns to cry

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

positive thoughts

“Fear less, hope more; Eat less, chew more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Love more, and all good things will be yours” - Swedish Proverb

Monday, April 6, 2009

life life life

its been awhile since i've update this blog.. hella laggin.

right now at this moment i have lots on my mind. tonight a had a little chat with my roomie and we talked a little about life and what we wanted -- and right now.. what do i really want? it made me think about everything.. -- woooOoo.'

in a lot of ways im confused you know totally sucks-- but i'lll figure it out right ? nothing a little time can't fix.

Sunday, March 22, 2009


its been so long since my last post.. lets see :

- i'm still dying & sick
+ i'm happy though besides that
+i'm painting the room pink! YEEEEEAH
+ im staying in seattle for the next year
+ hopefully holiday in july -- in need of some sun.
+ i love my roomies
- i miss skomo

Thursday, March 5, 2009

i love ellen

happy thoughts

Monday, March 2, 2009

carpe diem

right now i'm perfectly content with everything that i have in my life.

it hasn't been that long but i've diverted away from the whole date tip. and i'm actually proud of myself. i don't need a man right? yes, it is very nice to have someone but i think (right now in this current moment) i kinda don't want someone around. i'm happy chillin in bed watching movies, listening to music and reading books alone, (ps i'm totaly not turning into an emo girl) i like to think im carefree. i'm also trying my best to eliminate the little things in my life that stress me.

and this weekend. was great i loved every minute of it. going out with the girls friday getting hella loaded (sorry sheen) always fun.. then hella chill saturday with my parents and my little baby skomo ( i hella hella miss her.. i know not enough to take her back to seattle to live with me shut your face. i'm a horrible mom, i know) ended up getting stuck in some insane traffic left bremerton at 930 got home at 11. can we say insane? hah it's okay thought when i got home. i popped some popcorn and got hella into my book. (hella nerd status, i even put on the glasses) then sunday woke up early and chilled with my boyfriend, andrew it seems like it's been a long time since we've had a day like that chillin at barnes forever, costco then applebees! we are so fat! then we had a pleasent little run in with mr. stalker! i always love running into him. he is the male version of me. it's a little scary but i've accepted it. he always gives his full opinion of my life, not having a second thought of how it's going to make me feel ( but he is never ass holeish about it) i think i admire that most about him and i feel like that is why we get along so well, but still not well enought to call us freinds we are aquantences. (ahh it's complicated!)

anyways i'm happy:

+ i got to take a nap with my baby skomes (one of my many things i look forward to when going back to bremerton)

+ i want it all

+ i can seriously get lost in barnes

- shop therapy has been helping me be happy is that wrong? atleast i'm not turning to alcohol

+ so i've decided that from the remainder of this month i won't buy anymore books until i finish everything that i have now. its not that bad it's only like 3 books.. kinda. give or take .

+ also i'm only going to go out(as in get shit face-drunkie) on special events & the occational wednesday or when i just need that little fix for the rest of this month..(hah i know you're probably thinking ok. you'll proabbly need that fix every week, uhg! no! ) oh yeah and this excluedes dinner and lunch dates ( cause i need those, when i have lunch and dinner dates with friends i feel like they help to bring me closer to friends, it gives me a chance actually talk to them .. ahh whatever no explination needed but anyways i never plan on and i hardly ever get shit-faced on dinner or lunch dates) and yes i do know that its only the 2nd of march and i have a long way to go since there are 31 days this month. i can do it, it's what i want. i can do anything i set my mind to. so until the end of this month on official drunk night fridays will involve other activities then being little miss drunkie. -- party girl out, and saturday date nights are more chill and very bummy..

- i'm fucking hungry!

+ but this month i hope to work out more. party less, maybe take on a hobby, read more (help to expand my vocabulary) and just over all become a better person for myself.. (it's amazing what thoughts come out when i stay in, breath and take a step away from my life) and no i'm not depressed or sad in anyway i just wanna get away and out of the party girl scene and stereotype and i know i've been saying that for a long time ( i really do think i've toned it down alot. i went from going out 5 days a week to just 1 or 2 days big chage for me) and i feel like its time to really take it down a knotch.
i know you should never really care about what people say and what people think about you . and for the most part i don't just lately there have been a few random comments that have been shot my way and i actually really do take a little offense to them..(i guess the things that sucks most is that theses comments are from different people.) i know most are just random jokes and funn, but still even though i don't reveal it at the time it kinda hurts to hear somethings. or i dont know if hurt is the word.. but it bothers me. (there's always a little truth to every joke) i always think is that what you really think about me ? i always like to appear and be happy and care free i feel like if i'm happy then the people around me are happy. (eww i don't mean to get into this)

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

ahh life!

its been forever since i've blogged.. hmm life is good. ? i think. lots of things on my mind i guess
what do i really want? what really makes me happy? where do i wanna be right now? so on and so forth.. lots and lots of thinking ;

+ 20 more pages and im done reading something borrowed
- "you want the world but you just can't have it"
+ coraline in 3d with my 'boyfriend'
+ " youre definitely one of my favorite people to be around right now"
+ finally im not going to be blind anymore
- i actually missed out on my 'busy monday' routine
+ t.i. tonight
+ march 10 - the dream's new cd
+ quick nap.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

heart day

honestly today is one of my most favorite holidays. and as i think back i dont think i've ever had a really incredible valentines day but it's still up there with being one of my favs. hella weird huh? oh well . it's allll goood happy heart day!

+ i woke up happy
+ i got flowers
- weird, dilemma(i think i spelled that right but it looks wrong?) on my mind; uhm what to do... i'm a dummie. i'll figure it out in a few weeks.
+ i love being drunkie fuuuuuuuuun!

Thursday, February 12, 2009


im almost done reading my book.. yes i'm such a nerd but i'm excited to finish.. anyways, i woke up this morning extremely happy! as of right now life is good. right now....

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

chop chop!

yeah well i said bye bye to my long hair.. ended up donating about 14 inches!! weee!! i haven't had my hair this short since i was in like 5th grade or something like that. but i was a big girl no tears. i made it out of there in one piece. i think i'll really like it in a few days i guess it's just taking a little getting used to you know? heh ! this is only the beginning to a new me!

locks of love

so i decided that im going to donate my hair to locks of love. mom says it will get me points to get into heaven and you know i need all the points i can get hah! the minimum is 10 inches but i figure if im going to cut it i might as well cut it. i love my hair it so long but i remember last march i cut it sholder length and sice then it's grown alot it's already over 13 inches from my shoulders.. and every few weeeks i cut about 2 inches of anyways and no one notices.. so whatever. if i end up hating it then oh well it's just hair right ?? i just have to keep thinking it's for a good cause and it is.. so what the heck. i might as well just go for it! yeeeeeeahh get me into heaven!

Monday, February 2, 2009

just me

- i miss your face !
- "pen pals"
+ busy mondays: gossip girl, secret life, the city, big love, the l word, daddy's girls
+ less drinking
- confusion
- vulnerable
+ phone is no longer my life line
+ i love babies
+ smile awhile
- we ran out of bread!
- my closet broke
+ tether ball
- looooser face = sad panda
- im hungry

Friday, January 30, 2009


SHAMBLES: sad panda

you can only be on top for so long, after that there's no where to go but downnnnn.

over dramatic.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

hola soy sammy !

yo estoy a la casa de me papa. soy feliz que vine aquí. me dio un pequeño rato de la partida. pienso que tengo sida actuación un poco extraño últimamente hacia mis amigos regulares. individuos apesadumbrados. acabo de tomar mucho tiempo hacia fuera para pensar. refleje mi vida. también consigo ver mi bebé skomo. tan feliz ella durmió realmente conmigo anoche. hace mi día que despierta al lado de ella. de todas formas. estoy intentando calmar mi vida establecida el paso rápida abajo. tome un pequeño respiradero. piense más y haga menos. si eso tiene algún sentido. apenas foco!

ahhhhh how you like that?! this is what happens when i have a little much time to think.. heh

random likes: warm blankets. laying around. the sun. long socks. boots. laughing. dancing until my feet hurt. martinis. dinner dates. movie nights. talking for hours about nothing at all.little things just because. boxer shorts. orchids. music. geting dressed up. smell good stuff. sour candy. smiling until my face hurts. anything right after it comes out of the dryer. anything that says love on it. hello kitty. puppies. bunnies that look like puppies. shoes shoes & shoes. mexican/spanish like. cutesy things. greeen. popcorn. cotton candy. food. girly stuff.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

seattle i misss your face

so right now i'm just chillin at the gma''s house. heading back to seattle tonight..this was a good short little vaycay and at the same time i think needed.. it was a good break away from my seattle life. but then at the same time im actually ready to come home, sleep in my own bed and get back to my 2009 bumtastic life.

- lots on my mind
- "i dont even know what to do with myself"
+ mama comes home saturday
+ positive mind
- be more private

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009

feel good music

2008 was seriously a great year for me. it was filled will fun times and good company. i wouldnt do anything differently. i learned a lot about myself last year and i hope that 2009 is a good change for me.

+ i hope to get out of that party girl stereo-type: i know that yes i like to go out and have fun, but that's not all im about

+ i'd likee to catch up on my reading: i tend to buy good books, start them, then buy a new good to starts on.

+ focus