just breath.

wooooo-saaaaah.

I know at time I overreact but thats just me. Deal with it or get lost!

Everyone likes to feel a little appreciation sometimes. especially after a hard day, right ?!

I love my Noah-James more than life itself. He is my world!

better.

Ever feel like someone just hit you with a ton of bricks? It sucks. Just breath.

So what is the definition of a GOOD parent?? I think it's someone that gives their all, puts in 500%, does the best they can and loves with everything that they are made of. My job as a parent is to raise a child to be happy, healthy and become a respectable adult.

I do everything in my power to give Noah everything that I can. I love him more than life itself. He is my pride and joy. Now that I am a parent life is different, there's more to my life than me. He is my number one priority, he comes before anything else. I wouldn't trade my life for anything and I can't imagine my it any other way

I know that I am the best parent I can be.

everyday gets a little easier

Today was one of the best days I've had being alone. It was seriously all thanks to that baby carrier. :) I've managed to do the laundry, clean the house, eat breakfast and a snack. and I've got dinner started. Noah hasn't even cried that much today; cross my fingers. Today i started to time his naps and I started to get his milk reaady right before he wakes up so he doesn't have to wait so long for it to heat up. We'll see how tomorrow goes huh?

DATE NiGHT!

Noah's over at grandma and grandpa's house. So last night Melvin and I went on a date to the Cheesecake factory. It was nice and I finally had my first drink. Damn I only had only martini and I ended up having a headache. I'm going to say that it was cause it was late and I was tired. heeh. I guess I can't get down like I used to. Not even close huh?

Today we have a wedding to go to ;) I'm actually pretty stoked!

I remember that I used to be able to shower, do my hair, makeup and have a fresh pair of lashes on in less than an hour. Last night it took me almost 2 and 1/2 hours to get ready and today almost 2 hours. Sad. I'm just not used to getting ready for a night on the town anymore. heh. I need to start working out. I have baby blub blub. and I hate it. Oh it's kinda weird. I had a pair of jeans that are pre-pregnancy and they didn't fit me cause they were too small and now they fit with a little room to breath. I'm surprised! and I'm not complaining. ;)

I really miss Noah. I really didn't think I'd miss him as much as I do. I guess that's a good thing. It is nice to know that my parents are willing to take care of him whenever we need some time. Melvin was saying too bad my parents live so far cause then we could do date night once a week. Whenever we go on a date we always get close to spending $100.00 I have no idea why. I told Melvin it would get expensive if we went on a date every week we should maybe do it once or twice a month. I know my parents would love it though seems like they can't get enough of the little guy.

Little Man's sleep and so are the other two boys. YAY! Mama gets to get breakfast today. heh.

Noah's going to grandma and grandpa's house this weekend. They're giving us a little break which is nice we get to catch up on sleep and house cleaning ;) How fun huh? LOL. Plus we get to have a little date night && mama finally gets to have a little drink. Much needed. Right now I'm on the hunt for this thing called Milkscreen to check your milk for alcohol. hehehe

another day.

The boys are fast asleep. heh All three of them. I like it when it's quiet. I should be napping just like them but I don't always get a free minute. I just found out that I have to go back to work the week of November 21st. Damn. Makes me sad to think about it. I don't want to work anymore. I have to talk to my new manager about going back part-time. I know I should go back full time to get paid more and help to get us that much closer to buying a new house, but I don't wanna leave the little guy. Plus he'll be right around 3 months at that time and that's when he starts to get fun. Crawling and trying to make real noise trying to talk. Hopefully they can work me in part-time and Melvin and I can fix our schedules to work perfectly so that one of us is with him everyday and we won't have to do the babysitter thing.

Some dude's coming over today to replace my windshield I better catch some ZzzzZzzz before he gets here. <3

LiFE AS A MAMA

On August 29th 2010 at 6:09pm I gave birth to the most handsome baby boy ever! (of course I'm going to say that, I made him) So life has change so much since that day. There's more to my life than just me :) and I'm ok with that! We ended up naming him Noah-James; not Lopez. He's way too cute to name Lopez anyways. He's like my own little mini me made of ice cream, peanut butter and steamed crab. HAHA. As of right now he looks like me in every way, but I'm sure in a few weeks that will change and he'll end up looking more like daddy. He definitely has our appetite. He thinks life is a 24 hour buffet and we are here to serve him. He keeps us up and on our toes. Sleep? What's that?!?! haah Honestly the worst question anyone can ask us is if we're getting any rest. Really? We have a newborn! Sleep is not part of our vocabulary. But we're getting used to it and each day things get easier. He's already growing so much! When we took him home we were trying to shrink all of his clothes to fit and now the newborn stuff is starting to fit just right. He's such a good baby. I can't help but look at him and smile. I can't wait until he gets bigger and is able to actually play. He does smile all the time and even though he doesn't do much but eat, shit and sleep he has personality. Its so funny he actually grawls at us when he's angry. I love my little bundle of joy!

37 weeks 3 days

Todays agenda:

- Bacon, Eggs, French Toast ;)
- Peanut Butter Milkshake!!!!!


So I'm 37 weeks and 3 days today. And I'm feeling so lazy! Good thing I have the day off. We gotta get the house cleaned and get our hospital bag packed. This little guy could be here anyday now. How exciting!!!

Baby shower this week. YAY!

Finally the baby shower is this Saturday! ahh I'm excited.

Melvin leaves on Sunday to go to AZ. Sucks I hate staying home alone. Hopefully the trip doesn't make too long and he'll be back sooner then expected. I can only hope!

Today we got lots of running around to do! We gotta get all the last minute things for the shower food and stuff. then finish cleaning up the house. Oh-boy-oh joy!

another BUSY day off!

Today we finally finished the living room. Well really Melvin did. I tried to help but my back was killing me. I'm just so happy with how it looks. I'm so proud of how everything has come together. and we did it all on our own I think that's what I like the most. ;)

oh wednesday

It's not even 12 noon and I'm already exhausted. boo! i just can't wait until this house as all done. I can't wait until it's Thursday. A day off; kinda. heh. hopefully tomorrow we get flooring for the living room and maybe something we can start on for curtains. I know as soon as all of that is done this will start feeling more homey. Then we can finally start fixing up the baby room. YAY!

hmm moving on I think last night's birthing class was the best one that we've been to. Melvin hates the excersise portion of the class because he thinks its boring but last night I like he enjoyed it the most. He's the class clown. What a dork! I guess that's why I love him. He's the best. I feel bad sometimes cause I'm such a spaz and hard to deal with but he puts up with it 100%. <3

yay Bremerton ;)

hah no really though! I'm pretty excited to go to Bremerton today. I love spending time with my family and i never really thought I'd say this but I miss Bremerton from time to time. Don't get me wrong I do hate that food places aren't open past 9 and that everyone drives SO slow, but I guess I like the slower pace life over there. Living in the city is so much fun but I hate to leave the house to go to the grocery store cause it's so freaking far and making a run to a fast food place is never really that fast.

I can't wait until everything falls into place and we get a chance to move back well if Melvin still wants to that is.

I don't know where this damn rat is but I know he's out there it looks like the sticky rat trap that we put out there seems to have moved from last night. I'm so freaked! i can't wait to get on the road to head back to my parents house. but it's 8:40am ish and Melvin still hasn't woke up and I feel bad to leave him so I guess me and monti are going to wait for him to wake up.

Its been awhile...

.. we finally have internet at the new place. Everything is slowly coming together and all in good time. I'm so happy. The baby shower is in a few weeks, and it seems like that's our biggest worry. kinda. haha

• We have this freaking rat in our yard: I'm scared to death! I feel like nothing is safe

• We don't have cable yet:If you know me you know how much my tv means to me. Its $200 to get our cable transferred over here and there are just other things that we need to spend that money on right now. it blows!
  
• Still no carpet in the living room: We have remodeled this whole basement ourselves and I'm pretty proud of us. Everything looks so different we should have taken before and after pictures heh but everything looks great; livable. I hopefully by the end of next week there is a new carpet in our living room.
  
• We have no oven. Melvin's been on a grilling spree since we've moved here so we've postponed getting a stove. I know we're starting to get to the point where we need one but it's not someone we are dying without.

This whole house remodel and move had taught me to live a little different. I'm still the freak that I always have been about cleanliness and standards of living but being a little more frugal and learning to live with what I have making things last longer. I don't know hah kinda confusing but the past few months have been tight; remeodeling is expensive!! and also renting an apartment at the same time. believe me i'm counting the days that we are actually done remodeling and we are just living!

• Every time I think about giving birth I get scared. There are so many people who think that we area wasting money by paying to go to birthing class but the real reason I wanted to take them is because I am terrified to give birth! I saw the miracle of Little Mia and I'm so scared. haah If you know me you know my pain tolerence of lack of.. Everyone tells me I'm going to be fine and yes I'm sure I will be but anything to ease my mind a little I'm going to take.
  

• I have the best guy in the world:
  

monti

Beverly Hills Chihuahua DVD. Meeting Montezuma. @ Yahoo! Video

holas!

2010 is going to be veryyyyyyy different. a good different. i'm excited and happy. why can't the days go by a little faster. -- more later i'm tired again what else is new.

Yikes!

so i had a million things running through my mind and now i have a milllion and 1.

hah; welcome to my world.

today i received the scariest and most exciting news. now, i don't know what to do.

i guess i'm more scared than anything ..think positive, be positive. i'm fine. things fall into place. ;)

GET MOVING!

i must make myself a checklist or NOTHING is going to get done! meeting is at 7. we should leave a 630.

• shower (to wake up)
• get dressed (hopefully this task doesn't take looong)

hoping to have a few mins before so i can get to reading this damn book..

its 4:30 now lets see how this goes

meatless me!

So some of you might know I've turned into a vegetarian. actually lacto-ovo vegetarian; do not eat meat but i do consume dairy and eggs. I tried to do no dairy but I can't live without cheese and eggs.. I loooove fried eggs with toast.

Some of you might wonder what has come over me. Those of you that know me know that I am one of the BIGGEST carnivores but I saw some youtube video of different animals being slaughtered and it just broke my heart. i tried to become a vegan but it was wayy to hard. i wish i had enough self control to stay away from dairy and eggs but i don't. (boo to me!!)

so no meat or fish for me; its that that bad//

sitting back saying DAYMN!

TODAY:

i'm thinking that today is life a new leaf. last night i wrote out a bunch of goals i would like to fulfill asap and a to do list for today lets see how far i get.

in so many ways i feel like i wasted yesterday. heh i didn't go anywhere i was SO STUCK on my keyboard actually i'm thinking i was a super upgrade i say super because the keyboard i have is probably 3 to 4 times cheaper then the one i want. and i'm not pro or anything but i really do like playing it makes me feel relaxed and so lame but it's like im in my own little world. hah i guess when i'm the only one here it's always like my own world.

then i stayed up until i wwas practicly falling sleep trying to really figure out this vegan stuff. its hard to eliminate everything out of your life that involves hurting animals. it's very sad to say. but on one of the forums that i was looking at someone said you can't just cut everything out. you can only try your best. i'm with him on that shooot i would have to get rid of my couch. hah F-that!~ i love my couch geez i worked hard to get it. ;)

there was so much debate over the peta website. they have this list of SO many things that are vegan friendly foods and i was amazed then they were saying peta doesn't do enough research and 1/2 the things on the list were NOT vegan friendly. ahhhh i didn't think it would be THAT difficult. i guess if i product contains 1-2% animal peta considers it vegan friendly. i agree with dude and how he says trying to do your best to cut animal products out of your diet and life is all you can do!

so here goes nothing, its time for me to get on with today's list.

gotta have her - team black out

Baby girl ive been lookin for a minute got me feelin your body baby you look so fine give you a dime everytime outside watcha friends wish you could be mine little do you know you make me lose control got me feelin like ya do the blow this feelin is so unusual but lovin your hips and your lips I'll do your toes never seen a women like you got me feelin like i really wanna wack you huh I would trade it all in a minute baby and i wouldnt liable she something i couldnt deny but look dont let you just walk by because im fienen you could tell be the look in my eyes


yeS!

LOL, my favorite

lucky

why i looked this up ? i don't know!

Ignoring wind resistance, all objects fall at the same speed while under the influence of the same gravitational forces. For example, an object on the moon falls slower than on the earth. But while on the earth, two objects of the same wind resistance will always fall at the same speed. (Example: If you drop a bowling ball that has no holes and a marble from the top of The Empire State Building at precisely the same time, they will hit the ground at precisely the same time.)

All objects fall at the same speed.

No - aeordynamic objects will fall faster than objects that don't allow air to pass by them easily. Try this with a sheet of paper and a marble. Bottom line - All objects do NOT fall at the same speed

Yes- All objects fall at the same speed: The speed of gravity on earth which is 9.81 m/s^2. The issue here is air resistance. Yes a marble will fall faster than a piece of paper when air resistance is taken into consideration. But if you were to drop both these items at the same time while in a vacuum, then the objects would fall at the same rate. Also, as a note, "speed" is an incorrect word use here. "Velocity" would be more accurate because velocity includes direction as well as a speed, the direction in this case being "down" or "towards the center of the earth".

Above is true but to be practical the stuff we drop is not in a vacuum and therefore falls at different velocities

-Different velocities yes, but at the same acceleration. Just to remove confusion on the issue.

Paleo.

I know that a lot of you have questions as to what is the Paleo eating plan and this is it in a nutshell:

Meat and vegetables, nuts and seeds, some fruit, little starch and no sugar. EASY. No weighing,no measuring. Eat a palm-sized portion of protein as much veggies as you want and a good chunk of healthy fats. Do this 3 or 4 times a day, anytime it works for you.

ABSOLUTELY NO DAIRY & GRAINS (Bread, Rice, Pasta,Oats, Rye, Wheat, Barely, Quinoa,etc.) LEGUMES (Beans) OF ANY KIND!

Vegetables ARE Carbs! Potatoes are not vegetables.

Research has shown that hunter-gatherers consumed their energy source in a ratio of 65% animal and 35% plant.